Try and Show Me

Why is it, that I'm so dependent on you?
How is it that you affect me so much more than I realized?
What is it about you that keeps me sane?

Hopeless. That's what I am.
Somehow, without you here, I'm irritable, grumpy, sad, moody...all the bad emotions you can think of. It's almost like, with you there, I can face life- I can live day to day knowing that I can vent all I want to someone without being judged, and that I'll get an honest opinion from someone I love.

Then, why is it that you torture me so?
Even if it isn't your fault, couldn't you make some kind of a visible effort, or even tell me that you tried? Otherwise, how will I know you care for me? How will I know you want to be here?

Try letting me into your life.
Let me try and help you.
Just...give us a proper chance to be real.

If you fail to do so, I will fail you as well.
NO more trying.
NO more waiting for you to wait for me to initiate events.
NO more.

I'll be finished. Our relationship - over.

Then, maybe one day when you get your head together and at least speak of your efforts will I come back. I can't just throw this all away - there was too much progress (though it may not seem so) for us to give up hope forever.

Oops. There I go again chasing another dream...
It's too late now.
It's already spirited me away to a time when things were simpler...

You once told me..."Life's so boring and lackluster when you're not there..."
All I'm asking of you is to prove that to me one last time.