Second Guessing

What is God trying to tell me?

Right now, I'm living my life as simple as I can, yet still I feel the complexity lurking in the dark. I just want to be a normal, carefree teenager...well, maybe not normal, but carefree at the least.
Only a week more until I finally know if I'm going to stay or go. When school starts, I just want to know where I am, and where I'm going. Everything else will come in time.

But until yesterday, I was sure I knew where I was going. Then, when I came back from my trip, my mother told me that we would be moving within 4 weeks. Alright, fine; whatever. But from there, there could be another pending move for October. The location is what opened my eyes.

I thought I could just leave him. I thought I knew this was the right thing to do, but now I'm second guessing myself again. The location of the pending move is 2 intersections away from him. It's close enough that he has no excuse, and it's close enough for weekly visits. Yet, somehow, I still feel that I'm missing something important.

All of these second guesses are getting me down again even though I've been up almost all summer. The question remains : Should I stay or should I go?
A lot of me wants to just leave, start fresh. But the lurking darkness in my heart is telling me I'm going to regret it.
Who do I believe?
My mind or my heart?